Jungle (gurgaon) se shehar(delhi) tak

Jungle (gurgaon) se shehar(delhi) tak

So after 4 years and 5 months in NCR , I ultimately managed to depart Gurgaon and relocated to Delhi. Oh boy such a relief,  I don’t  know how I was living there in gurgaon and now I have a better question why I was living there. Well whatever, Delhi is a different place , it is like a city with dil wale log(people with heart), all they care about talking, walking ,stalking and various other suffix of king.

Life is transformed a lot post demise of my father, don’t  know why he died so early  but now I can proudly accept the fact that he was a great man and a wonderful  father.  I must say he should be very happy now to spot me living in a society of Delhi, with all most all luxuries of an Indian home.

I used to be someone else , what I am now  but am I the one who is ‘the one’  once upon a time , don’t know where to conclude the question, though the way I am writing all this over again that I might  be the one the who use to be ‘the one’.

Since I moved this new home, I am singing once again, playing guitar,  learning website development, getting losses in business   but overall I am experimenting with whole lot of things in whole lot of ways.

My next plan is to provide  a different dimension to this blog of mine by keeping the complexities constant!!!

Do good, Be good and good Karma to all

Jab tak hai jaan review

Jab Tak Hai Jaan makes life look easy. So easy that a self proclaimed 25-year-old, who looks 40, gets to kiss a girl who seems to have walked out of Vogue. You also believe that the latter, despite all her Mercedes and Gucci glory, can’t keep her hands off a waiter who has an annoying habit of speaking like he is perpetually in an art of living class.

Life’s so easy, that you can walk straight into an army camp in Ladakh in barely visible hot pants and prance around shooting, presumably stuff, while there are people detonating bombs all around you. Also, if you have legs like Anushka Sharma’s, you belong to a curiously privileged class who can dance around in beach volleyball attire while goats, men and children around shiver through layers of winter clothes.

A still from Jab Tak Hai Jaan. Image courtesy: Yash Raj films.

You can also go from being freeloading floozies to Michelin-starred restaurant owners in no time, you can lose and get your memory back pretty much the same way you get back an iPod forgotten in the shorts pocket, and you can jump from age 25 to age 35 without half a cell on your face withering.

Logic is the biggest casualty ofJab Tak Hai Jaan, yes. Like, of course it is, in any Yash Chopra film. So what you get is a bit of a Veer Zaara, only re-packaged with taller women with hotter legs.

Shah Rukh Khan here is Samar Anand. The film opens to tell you he is the Michael Phelps of bomb disposal in the Indian Army. We, predictably, are in Ladakh where SRK whooshes in, in all his week-old stubble and aviator glory to defuse a really dangerous bomb. With the kind of intensity one shows while restarting a PC, he picks on this wire and that, and whoops the bomb’s arse – or so says the thundering background music.

Cut to Anushka Sharma – she with her washboard abs, endless legs and holding a perfect cover-girl pose in a bikini in Ladakh – who is an aspiring documentary filmmaker assisting a Discovery Channel crew. She is also called Akira Rai. (Cue to gush,  ’How quirky!’.)

So sidekick heroine stumbles upon hero’s diary, where he has written down his 10-year-old love story, presumably with the lyrics of the songs he had sung with his girl and details of  all the places they had made out in. Since this is India, you don’t cry kiss-and-tell, you call it a Yash Chopra film. Filmmaker Rai then bamboozles her way into the high-security Army camp to shoot a documentary on Mr Kick-ass bomb disposer, does cool military-ish stuff while managing to sport a perfect blow dry hairdo and also falls in love with hurt-in-love hero. Oh by the way, hero’s ex-girlfriend, Meera – Katrina Kaif with an absolutely drool-worthy wardrobe – had left him ten years back. When Anand had an accident, Meera made a promise to Sir Jesus (cute god-next-door names for Jesus Christ), that she would dump her boyfriend if God makes sure that he lives. Hero lives. She dumps him, because she has promised God she will. And yes, you’re reading this right.

You don’t question how a documentary titled ‘A Man Who Cannot Die’ have people gushing about it London. It’s important for the story to move on you realise. So, cynical Discovery people have to make sure that Akira was not shooting a Bollywood extra and demand bomb-stud Major turn up in London. He does, is knocked down again and lands up in a hospital again. This time, however, he doesn’t lose a girl. He loses ten-year’s worth his memory. And a lot  of drama, sad song singing and cheesy dialogue throwing ensues. And goes on till the film ends. And by the time it does, entry rules in Army camps in India have been successfully established as being as stringent as those in coffee shops, so the climax doesn’t take you by surprise.

It’s probably rude to bad-mouth the dead. But even the highest amount of respect for Yash Chopra cliches can’t make Jab Tak Hai Jaan less of a burden on its viewer. If Shah Rukh Khan lip synching to a Rabbi song every now and then is not annoying enough, Chopra seemed to have completely lost the plot with the dialogues this time. The only times you’re reminded you’re watching a 2012 film and not some Rajesh Khanna-ish flick of the seventies is when Anushka Sharma talks like an average 21-year-old.

Unlike in a Dil To Pagal Hai from fourteen years back, you can no more sell Shah Rukh Khan as a traffic stopping dancer. Jumping around while juggling a fedora cannot be passed off as hot anymore. A Katrina Kaif in grunge glory and her new-found post-Sheila dancing oomph, for company, doesn’t help Shah Rukh Khan’s case either. And no amount of bronzer can make him look 25, which you are told he is for one whole half of the film.

You have seen everything Jab Tak Hai Jaan has many times before, just in other films. And probably with far better music than AR Rahman threw into this one.

Do Good, Be Good  and Good Karma to all

I loved my father

I loved my father a lot , i never told him but i loved him a lot. when he is no more in this world, i started to miss him like anything. I was watching Dasvidania -the movie  a little while back and now i co- relate how my father completed his last wishes before his death.This blog is dedicated to my father Late Mr. Akhilesh Dutt Sharma S/o Late Mr. Rajendra Dutt Sharma S/O Late Mr.Krishan Swaroop Sharma S/O Late Mr. Dwarka Prasad Sharma.

My father died because of cancer that's what we can conclude but i don't know there were other things involved in his death. Prior to his death i was not so superstitious or a believer of God, but post his death i certainly understood the fact that you can never see it coming . My father was a healthy , smiling and ever expressive human being in April 2012 and lost to death in July 2012 . He use to tell me always that i will remember his words after him, but i never took them seriously back then , but now i cant change the inevitable fact that i have no one above me to call father . I have lost that feeling of security in my life , now i have to think twice for every step i take in life, because you never know what unfolds in front you in life.

The day before his death. he wanted to meet me and i told my mother that i will reach within 3 days and now i will regret throughout my life that my father wanted to meet me and i was not able to reach there on time probably i had a minute chance to save my father  but i cant to anything now.There is a void which is created in my family and now i really value relations and relationships more than ever.

I don't know what to write now for my father , all i can say that i was not there when he was in need  and all i am left with memories . All i can do is to tell others that start valuing your family and life, because you never know which one can fall short ...

do good , be good and good karma to all

Borrowed from facebook!!!

WRITTEN BY AN INDIAN SOFTWARE ENGINEER..
A Bitter Reality

... As the dream of most parents I had acquired a degree in
Software Engineering and joined a company based in USA, the
land of braves and opportunity. When I arrived in the USA, it
was as if a dream had come true.


Here at last I was in the place where I want to be. I decided I
would be staying in this country for about Five years in which
time I would have earned enough money to settle down in India.

My father was a government employee and after his retirement,
the only asset he could acquire was a decent one bedroom flat.


I wanted to do some thing more than him. I started feeling
homesick and lonely as the time passed. I used to call home and
speak to my parents every week using cheap international phone
cards. Two years passed, two years of Burgers at McDonald's and
pizzas and discos and 2 years watching the foreign exchange
rate getting happy whenever the Rupee value went down.

Finally I decided to get married. Told my parents that I have
only 10 days of holidays and everything must be done within
these 10 days. I got my ticket booked in the cheapest flight.
Was jubilant and was actually enjoying hopping for gifts for
all my friends back home. If I miss anyone then there will be
talks. After reaching home I spent home one week going through
all the photographs of girls and as the time was getting
shorter I was forced to select one candidate.


In-laws told me, to my surprise, that I would have to get
married in 2-3 days, as I will not get anymore holidays. After
the marriage, it was time to return to USA, after giving some
money to my parents and telling the neighbors to look after
them, we returned to USA.


My wife enjoyed this country for about two months and then she
started feeling lonely. The frequency of calling India
increased to twice in a week sometimes 3 times a week. Our
savings started diminishing.

After two more years we started to
have kids. Two lovely kids, a boy and a girl, were gifted to us
by the almighty. Every time I spoke to my parents, they asked
me to come to India so that they can see their grand-children.


Every year I decide to go to India… But part work part
monetary conditions prevented it. Years went by and visiting
India was a distant dream. Then suddenly one day I got a
message that my parents were seriously sick. I tried but I
couldn't get any holidays and thus could not go to India ... The
next message I got was my parents had passed away and as there
was no one to do the last rights the society members had done
whatever they could. I was depressed. My parents had passed
away without seeing their grand children.


After couple more years passed away, much to my children's
dislike and my wife's joy we returned to India to settle down.
I started to look for a suitable property, but to my dismay my
savings were short and the property prices had gone up during
all these years. I had to return to the USA...


My wife refused to come back with me and my children refused to
stay in India... My 2 children and I returned to USA after
promising my wife I would be back for good after two years.

Time passed by, my daughter decided to get married to an
American and my son was happy living in USA... I decided that
had enough and wound-up every thing and returned to India... I
had just enough money to buy a decent 02 bedroom flat in a
well-developed locality.


Now I am 60 years old and the only time I go out of the flat is
for the routine visit to the nearby temple. My faithful wife
has also left me and gone to the holy abode.

Sometimes

I wondered was it worth all this?

My father, even after staying in India,

Had a house to his name and I too have
the same nothing more.

I lost my parents and children for just ONE EXTRA BEDROOM.

Looking out from the window I see a lot of children dancing.
This damned cable TV has spoiled our new generation and these
children are losing their values and culture because of it. I
get occasional cards from my children asking I am alright. Well
at least they remember me.


Now perhaps after I die it will be the neighbors again who will
be performing my last rights, God Bless them.

But the question
still
remains 'was all this worth it?'

I am still searching for an answer.................!!!

START THINKING

IS IT JUST FOR ONE EXTRA BEDROOM???

LIFE IS BEYOND THIS ….., DON'T JUST LEAVE YOUR LIFE ……!!!!
START LIVING IT …….!!!
LIVE IT AS YOU WANT IT TO BE ……!!

Spirituality

Spirituality

Spirituality has a different meaning to each of us, it seems. A standard definition would be: "A sense of meaning and purpose; a sense of self and of a relationship with 'that which is greater than self".

Currently, Religion and Mysticism seem to have the monopoly on Spirituality. Theistic religion often regards a 'relationship with god' or divine creator, as a spiritual relationship, while Mystics will often find a relationship to a 'supernatural' force or power. The bottom line is that, almost universally, spirituality has to do with a 'relationship' on one level or another. In most perspectives, it is associated with a person's 'place' or 'meaning' in life... whatever that may be.

As subjective as these things can be, we begin to recognize changes in these notions, for social progress tends to carve a path for understandings that stand the test of time. In the modern age, we have the ability to look far in our past and examine what our ancestors used to consider 'real', and then compare those ideas to what we understand today. Many "spiritual practices" which have existed in the past, no longer exist due the understandings that have come about in regard to natural phenomenon. As a base example, early religions often 'sacrificed' animals for certain purposes... this rarely happens today, as the relevance of such an act has proven pointless in its desired effect. Likewise, rarely do people perform 'raindances' in order to influence the weather... today we understand how weather patterns are created, and ritual practices have no provable effect.

Similarly, the idea of 'praying' to a god for a particular request, has also statistically proven to have little effect on an outcome, not to mention the evidence to support a personified creator doesn't exist in any scientific way...rather it is often derived from ancient historical literary speculation and tradition.

Establishment Religion, in many ways, seems to be rooted in a perceptual misunderstanding about life's processes. For instance, it presents a worldview which often puts the human on a different level than other elements of nature. This 'spiritual ego' has led to dramatic conflicts for generations, not only between human beings, but inadvertently between us and the environment itself.

However, as time has moved forward, Science has shown how human beings are subject to the exact same forces of nature as everything else. We have learned that we all share the same atomic substructure as trees, birds and all other forms of life. We have learned that we cannot live without nature's elements... we need clean air to breathe, food to eat, energy from the sun, etc. When we understand this Symbiotic relationship of life, we begin to see that as far as 'relationships' are concerned, our relationship to the planet is the most profound and important. The medium by which this is expressed, is Science, for the Scientific Method has allowed us insight into these natural processes, so we can better understand how we 'fit' into this life system as a whole.

This could be called a 'spiritual' awakening.

This realization, which has been proven by science, is that humans are no different from any other form of nature, while our integrity is only as good as the integrity of our environment, to which we are a part. This understanding presents an entirely different 'spiritual' worldview, for it forces the idea of interdependence and connection, at its core.

The interconnection of the whole of life is undeniable in the most basic sense, and it is this perpetual 'relationship' of total interconnectivity that is not fully realized by society overall. Thus, our modes of conduct and perception are largely out of line with nature itself... and hence destructive.

Nature itself is our teacher, and our social institutions and philosophies should be derived from this foundational and, invariably, 'spiritual' understanding.

The faster this spiritual awakening spreads, the more sane, peaceful and productive society will become.

In short " Realization of Self is the spritual awakening" in my next blog....

In Persuit of happyness (MAYBE)

In Persuit of happyness (MAYBE)

Most of the times, our living perceptions become the truth of our conscious, which we keep on protecting and justifying for the whole of life.The people, who affirm our thoughts , come closer to us , in-spite of their complex & confused personality . In the process , our conscious adjusts according to our upbringing, leaving aside any flexibility in approach.

I was watching this movie in persuit of happyness lately, though watched it earlier as well, but found it more close to my real life this instance only , this movie was based on true story of chris gardner who was the CEO of Gardener and Rich (a very big stock broking firm) . Chris gardener was a salesmen back in 1981 ,was selling bone density meter machines and had struggle selling them resulting in a broken marriage and otherwise circumstances . Chris gardner excelled through success after joining Dean witters . His struggle from a salesman to a stockbroker is excellently portrayed in the movie, there were some greatest of quotes are there  in movie like

“You got a dream... You gotta protect it. People can't do something' themselves, they wanna tell you you can't do it. If you want something', go get it. Period. “

“ maybe happiness is something that we can only pursue and maybe we can actually never have it. No matter what.”

Well this is not the review of a movie .. this is about me , I am in dilemma again, the good guy inside me is getting me into trouble, because all the satisfaction that I get is by the courtesy of bad guy inside me

Success and failures are only the choices similarly the suffering and happiness...its middle of the night and I have some trouble in sleeping . The reasons can be plenty 1 , i've been thinking too much 2, I am not happy or 3 , may be I am happy but I am fooling my mind and body along with the world that I am not happy.

Maybe there were three four targets too many that I setted for myself and off-course I am not able to achieve them .When I was kid , I had too many aspirations in mind and my teachers were confident that Rishi is different and would surely do something big or something remarkable , may be I did but not up to that mark!!! so may be I am in pressure of a question have I made it large?

May be I am not happy with my job , I just dont want to go there , but I have achieved a lot in this domain, some people still believes in me, some people still respects me , some people still want me to work there but I don’t know, why I don’t feel overwhelmed with the fact that I should go to work to fulfill all the expectations of the people or may be my own invisible expectations from myself. Maybe I am scared of myself only, maybe I've setted the wrong expectation from myself. Somewhere deep inside I know that I dont have enough mettle left in me to go extra mile, may be all the cylinders are already fired enough but what if I am wrong , what If the best is yet to come . I dont know

 

When I joined this industry ,i was the only fresher in this company , I struggled a bit during my initial phases but once I settled in, I proved that only hard work , results and happiness are interrelated . I worked , I broke records, I Increased the standards and hence expectations from me as well, I was working without any limit thats when I lived the statement “SKY IS THE LIMIT”. May be my past performances or infact my past image is stopping me to grew further...All of us want to know the cause & purpose of our existence and key to happyness, but some are satisfied without answer, another few live in ignorance , ......strong desiring people find multiple justifications..... I dont consider myself as strong desring though still working out to find some answers... Still answer remain unanswered from universal truth

My Motive than was earning money, loads of loads of money, My motive now is to earn loads of and loads of and loads of money, money is the main variable and motivation is constant , still there is variation in happyness and satisfaction degrees.

What should I do ? I am speaking to myself , trying to find out answers and ending up finding excuses... may be those excuses are my answers, may be I am not asking the right question. I know my targets and those are very common like earning more money , working well with satisfaction and attain health and similar energy levels that I had in past and which in turn must yield happyness....

Let me pen down my life in four parts, my present, my past , my answers and my excuses

My Present

1) I have a job, a reputed profile though I don’t have the same energy and motivation

2) I have a girlfriend and I am going to marry her soon

3) I don’t have financial reserves, coz I have lost it because f my friends

4) I have bad health, eiosinphillia, techycardia, hypertension and pain in right shoulder

5) I want to study

6) I am not happy

My Past

1) I was happy in phases but resultant can be considered happy

2) I had reserves till the time I was in confidence when my friends would return them

3) I had many friends to hang out with but I never went out

4) I had extremely high energy levels and charm

My answers

1) should get back to work, and try to get in touch with the real world

2) Should start preparing for study and study instead of planning only

3) Should stop giving my hard earned money to the people

4) Should not take tensions anymore , coz tensions are not helping

5) Happiness is all over the world , it how you perceive things

My Excuses

1) I am not happy

2) I have so many responcibilities

3) I need loads of money

4) I am not well

5) I dont like my job

6) and I am  happy

The only quote that can make me happy (may be)

Happiness is always a by-product.  It is probably a matter of temperament, and for anything I know it may be glandular.  But it is not something that can be demanded from life, and if you are not happy you had better stop worrying about it and see what treasures you can pluck from your own brand of unhappiness.

do good be good and good karma to all